Your Love Feels Like The Sun | {THE AND} Sophie & Jose Angel
In This Video
Sophie (they/she) & Jose Angel (he/him) are daughter and father, and have a special spiritual connection. Jose Angel was diagnosed with long COVID. This means that his thinking process and communication skills have been affected. He sometimes confuses words, finds it difficult to read, or even express himself. Sophie is now his primary caregiver. On today’s video, they talk about visiting Mexico together, and if Sophie still needs their father approval.
Transcript
0:02
How have you surprised me most as a father
0:05
that I never expected
0:07
is that you always have a sense of humor.
0:10
Like no matter what is going on.
0:13
And that consistency,
0:17
to have that within
0:19
you is like, Yes, that's your essence.
0:21
And that has been such
0:23
a welcome surprise.
0:25
Like, remember
0:25
when I threw and I pitched a baseball
0:29
at you
0:29
and you were- you're swinging
0:31
and yeah, I hit your eye.
0:33
- Yes, I still have it. - And that’s the reason your eye is smaller
0:36
than the other one
0:37
and you're literally bleeding.
0:40
And I and my brother were crying
0:42
because I was like 12.
0:44
And
0:45
what did you say after you know,
0:49
taking a second
0:50
to just realize what was happening?
0:53
You're like, Oh, no, I damaged-
0:56
I got blood on my new Giants jersey.
0:59
Like. - I was bleeding.
1:01
You- but you made a joke.
1:02
Like that was the first thing you did
1:05
when you saw your kids crying.
1:07
Was you made us laugh and you made us,
1:10
like, realize
1:12
it wasn't that big of a deal.
1:13
And even though I had a lot of guilt over
1:15
it, like,
1:16
you're just like,
1:18
so generous with your heart.
1:21
And I think you do that through humor.
1:23
And yeah, I love that about you.
1:37
Okay. - What-
1:39
What? - What are you...
1:43
Hesitant.
1:44
Hesitant. - To.
1:47
To ask
1:49
the... - Me.
1:50
Me... you.
1:53
Me, and why?
1:55
What is hesitant for me?
1:58
And why?
1:59
Here, almost. - Okay.
2:00
Well, let's just try one more time.
2:02
You got it.
2:03
You got it.
2:03
What are you hesitant to ask you?
2:08
- Me. - Me?
2:09
What?
2:11
Hmm...
2:13
You. It’s your turn.
2:17
What am I hesitant to ask you?
2:19
And why?
2:23
Hmm.
2:38
I guess, um,
2:45
sometimes I'm hesitant to ask you
2:50
more about
2:53
visiting Mexico
2:56
and for you
2:58
to come with me when I go.
3:01
Because you've already explained
3:06
how hard it was for you
3:09
being born there and growing up there.
3:12
And
3:14
you've just said, like,
3:15
that's more of you
3:16
for- an adventure for you to do
3:19
without me. Like, I'm done.
3:21
So I know I asked you
3:25
that before. Um,
3:29
yeah.
3:31
Yeah, that was a trip.
3:33
That's over time.
3:34
It has been always a trip. Like this is it.
3:37
I was also asking like,
3:39
Well, and I was.
3:42
I was telling.
3:43
I was telling myself and telling
3:45
the family.
3:46
I said, that's what she wants.
3:48
And I said, And that's,
3:51
that's what she wants.
3:52
Yeah.
3:52
And I had a different experience
3:55
going to Mexico because I got to choose
3:59
to go and like, you know, choose
4:03
to have my own experience
4:06
there on my own terms
4:08
as like a young adult at like 18
4:11
and then again at like in my twenties.
4:14
And
4:16
I still- I'm still going to ask you,
4:18
even though I'm hesitant
4:19
to ask it,
4:20
I would love to go to Puebla with you.
4:23
I would love to see it
4:25
from your perspective.
4:26
There's no one else
4:27
I'd want to go to Puebla with,
4:29
and that's
4:29
one of the few cities in Mexico,
4:31
like at least major cities
4:33
that I haven't gone to yet.
4:34
So... - So that's a trip...
4:37
I’m like, Okay, yeah, that’s what you want. - Yeah.
4:40
Let's do it.
4:42
That’s one thing. I’ve told you. - Really?
4:44
Is like, Okay, your mom wants to go there too.
4:47
We go to the other side.
4:48
And I'll, I'll follow you on your- on your
4:53
Yeah. On your trips. - Thank you.
4:56
Okay.
4:57
Yeah. - Wow.
4:59
Let’s go.
5:00
You heard it here first.
5:01
Okay, no, it’s my turn.
5:04
Go ahead. - Nice.
5:06
In what ways do
5:07
you think I still want your approval?
5:10
And why do you think that is?
5:12
What do I think?
5:14
Is my approval. - Yes, why do I- your approval.
5:16
How do you...
5:18
Where do you think I want your approval?
5:21
On what topics?
5:24
Well, that was when you were very young.
5:27
No, right now, like right now. - Right now?
5:30
Where do you think
5:31
even though I'm an adult,
5:32
how do you think I still seek
5:34
your approval?
5:36
You do not.
5:37
I have
5:38
something to say right now,
5:39
I have something to say.
5:41
And that's.
5:43
You don't have my approval.
5:45
- I don’t have it? - You have- you have personal.
5:48
You only have...
5:50
That's what I say.
5:51
You're on your own
5:53
and I follow you on any level.
5:56
And- and that's that.
5:58
Wow.
5:59
I don't have to say. And I do not.
6:01
And I've always been this for
6:04
Oh my God, like
6:06
a lot of time,
6:08
many, many, many times
6:11
you don't have my approval.
6:15
I don't ha-
6:15
I don't need your permission?
6:17
No.
6:19
You just ask me.
6:21
But I don’t say... - Right.
6:22
Yes or no.
6:23
I'm like, what do you think?
6:25
What do you wanna do?
6:26
I just say it. I just tell you.
6:29
But I don't have to ask your approval.
6:34
Yeah, it's yours
6:36
since... - It's- right.
6:38
Okay.
6:39
Yeah.
6:40
There you go.
6:41
What does my love feel
6:47
for?
6:48
Feel like.
6:50
Um...
6:51
It feels like the sun.
6:54
The sun?
6:54
Yeah.
6:56
Yeah.
6:58
It's just a-
7:01
Just. That was.
7:02
It’s love. - Yeah.
7:03
It's warm and it's...
7:07
The sun is like a father figure in a way.
7:11
It brings life
7:14
in astrology.
7:16
So...
7:19
That’s it. - Alright. My turn.
7:22
If- Okay.
7:23
If this were to
7:24
be our last conversation ever,
7:28
what would you never want me to forget?
7:35
I don't want you
7:36
to lose forever is
7:40
my love.
7:40
I actually want to.
7:42
And I have told you this before.
7:43
Like what I really want to be.
7:46
And burn it, Burn it
7:49
and throw it in the lake.
7:54
You want to be- yeah, your ashes.
7:56
I have told you that. And I have told ___________ too.
7:58
That’s-
7:59
That's it. That's.
8:01
I don’t need anything else.
8:02
I just want that
8:03
and I said, Think-
8:05
think of me and be afraid. Be...
8:10
feel it and think of it with music
8:13
and- and I said don’t be...
8:16
Don't be sad. - Don't be sad.
8:18
That's it.
8:19
All right, I won’t or I'll try not to.
8:23
Yeah, that's it.
8:26
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8:28
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8:29
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Transcript
0:02
How have you surprised me most as a father
0:05
that I never expected
0:07
is that you always have a sense of humor.
0:10
Like no matter what is going on.
0:13
And that consistency,
0:17
to have that within
0:19
you is like, Yes, that's your essence.
0:21
And that has been such
0:23
a welcome surprise.
0:25
Like, remember
0:25
when I threw and I pitched a baseball
0:29
at you
0:29
and you were- you're swinging
0:31
and yeah, I hit your eye.
0:33
- Yes, I still have it. - And that’s the reason your eye is smaller
0:36
than the other one
0:37
and you're literally bleeding.
0:40
And I and my brother were crying
0:42
because I was like 12.
0:44
And
0:45
what did you say after you know,
0:49
taking a second
0:50
to just realize what was happening?
0:53
You're like, Oh, no, I damaged-
0:56
I got blood on my new Giants jersey.
0:59
Like. - I was bleeding.
1:01
You- but you made a joke.
1:02
Like that was the first thing you did
1:05
when you saw your kids crying.
1:07
Was you made us laugh and you made us,
1:10
like, realize
1:12
it wasn't that big of a deal.
1:13
And even though I had a lot of guilt over
1:15
it, like,
1:16
you're just like,
1:18
so generous with your heart.
1:21
And I think you do that through humor.
1:23
And yeah, I love that about you.
1:37
Okay. - What-
1:39
What? - What are you...
1:43
Hesitant.
1:44
Hesitant. - To.
1:47
To ask
1:49
the... - Me.
1:50
Me... you.
1:53
Me, and why?
1:55
What is hesitant for me?
1:58
And why?
1:59
Here, almost. - Okay.
2:00
Well, let's just try one more time.
2:02
You got it.
2:03
You got it.
2:03
What are you hesitant to ask you?
2:08
- Me. - Me?
2:09
What?
2:11
Hmm...
2:13
You. It’s your turn.
2:17
What am I hesitant to ask you?
2:19
And why?
2:23
Hmm.
2:38
I guess, um,
2:45
sometimes I'm hesitant to ask you
2:50
more about
2:53
visiting Mexico
2:56
and for you
2:58
to come with me when I go.
3:01
Because you've already explained
3:06
how hard it was for you
3:09
being born there and growing up there.
3:12
And
3:14
you've just said, like,
3:15
that's more of you
3:16
for- an adventure for you to do
3:19
without me. Like, I'm done.
3:21
So I know I asked you
3:25
that before. Um,
3:29
yeah.
3:31
Yeah, that was a trip.
3:33
That's over time.
3:34
It has been always a trip. Like this is it.
3:37
I was also asking like,
3:39
Well, and I was.
3:42
I was telling.
3:43
I was telling myself and telling
3:45
the family.
3:46
I said, that's what she wants.
3:48
And I said, And that's,
3:51
that's what she wants.
3:52
Yeah.
3:52
And I had a different experience
3:55
going to Mexico because I got to choose
3:59
to go and like, you know, choose
4:03
to have my own experience
4:06
there on my own terms
4:08
as like a young adult at like 18
4:11
and then again at like in my twenties.
4:14
And
4:16
I still- I'm still going to ask you,
4:18
even though I'm hesitant
4:19
to ask it,
4:20
I would love to go to Puebla with you.
4:23
I would love to see it
4:25
from your perspective.
4:26
There's no one else
4:27
I'd want to go to Puebla with,
4:29
and that's
4:29
one of the few cities in Mexico,
4:31
like at least major cities
4:33
that I haven't gone to yet.
4:34
So... - So that's a trip...
4:37
I’m like, Okay, yeah, that’s what you want. - Yeah.
4:40
Let's do it.
4:42
That’s one thing. I’ve told you. - Really?
4:44
Is like, Okay, your mom wants to go there too.
4:47
We go to the other side.
4:48
And I'll, I'll follow you on your- on your
4:53
Yeah. On your trips. - Thank you.
4:56
Okay.
4:57
Yeah. - Wow.
4:59
Let’s go.
5:00
You heard it here first.
5:01
Okay, no, it’s my turn.
5:04
Go ahead. - Nice.
5:06
In what ways do
5:07
you think I still want your approval?
5:10
And why do you think that is?
5:12
What do I think?
5:14
Is my approval. - Yes, why do I- your approval.
5:16
How do you...
5:18
Where do you think I want your approval?
5:21
On what topics?
5:24
Well, that was when you were very young.
5:27
No, right now, like right now. - Right now?
5:30
Where do you think
5:31
even though I'm an adult,
5:32
how do you think I still seek
5:34
your approval?
5:36
You do not.
5:37
I have
5:38
something to say right now,
5:39
I have something to say.
5:41
And that's.
5:43
You don't have my approval.
5:45
- I don’t have it? - You have- you have personal.
5:48
You only have...
5:50
That's what I say.
5:51
You're on your own
5:53
and I follow you on any level.
5:56
And- and that's that.
5:58
Wow.
5:59
I don't have to say. And I do not.
6:01
And I've always been this for
6:04
Oh my God, like
6:06
a lot of time,
6:08
many, many, many times
6:11
you don't have my approval.
6:15
I don't ha-
6:15
I don't need your permission?
6:17
No.
6:19
You just ask me.
6:21
But I don’t say... - Right.
6:22
Yes or no.
6:23
I'm like, what do you think?
6:25
What do you wanna do?
6:26
I just say it. I just tell you.
6:29
But I don't have to ask your approval.
6:34
Yeah, it's yours
6:36
since... - It's- right.
6:38
Okay.
6:39
Yeah.
6:40
There you go.
6:41
What does my love feel
6:47
for?
6:48
Feel like.
6:50
Um...
6:51
It feels like the sun.
6:54
The sun?
6:54
Yeah.
6:56
Yeah.
6:58
It's just a-
7:01
Just. That was.
7:02
It’s love. - Yeah.
7:03
It's warm and it's...
7:07
The sun is like a father figure in a way.
7:11
It brings life
7:14
in astrology.
7:16
So...
7:19
That’s it. - Alright. My turn.
7:22
If- Okay.
7:23
If this were to
7:24
be our last conversation ever,
7:28
what would you never want me to forget?
7:35
I don't want you
7:36
to lose forever is
7:40
my love.
7:40
I actually want to.
7:42
And I have told you this before.
7:43
Like what I really want to be.
7:46
And burn it, Burn it
7:49
and throw it in the lake.
7:54
You want to be- yeah, your ashes.
7:56
I have told you that. And I have told ___________ too.